Forgetting about the right time

I am a very goal oriented person. If I have a task ahead of me, set out a deadline and a path to it- I am generally quite productive. If I know there is some nebulous item looming in the tomorrow land, I will rarely get it started forget about finishing it.

But that is changing - I hope. I am trying to discard the old plan oriented/procrastinator self who waits for the right time for a new model. The one that is more concerned about right NOW not a right time. It is a hard part of myself to morph.

God is reminding me to look at right now - what is going on right now that I need to be aware of? At the same time, seeing down the road keeps me from drowning in the right nowness of the day. There is a fine balance to this mindfulness.

This picture reminds me of the right now. There have been times when I would have waited until the entire tree was in bloom. I have found the beginning reveals the details. We never see the details of the bud and the vast effort it takes to bloom when we see the whole tree. Waiting to see the beauty, we miss the real beauty. The journey and revelations along the way.

I am praying my eyes will stay focused on today and my spirit on eternity. Perhaps, that is the only way to make it while travelling from the now to the not yet.